


I did for them what I had never done for my own children. They are bundles of joy as I see them grow. However, I am making it up now with my twin granddaughters, Dviti and Srisha and my grandson, Avyay. It was a pity that when they wanted my time from me, I did not have it, and now, when I had all the time, they perhaps did not need me as much. However, as both my daughter, Aditi, and son, Apurv, had grown up and settled into their respective professions, I could not still spend as much time with them as I would have wanted to. Due to my professional engagements, my family members often felt ignored, though they never expressed it. The best part of post-retirement life is spending time with my family. I was soon to discover that the government was shortchanging me big time. However, the biggest revelation was discovering my true worth, financially and otherwise. Fortunately, there is not much of a change in the number. Even during my stint as a civil servant, I did not encourage hangers on, but now, in any case, only true friends are around to engage with. Thankfully, there are no such restrictions now. They are also perhaps unaware that a number of civil servants do express their opinions freely and frankly on files and during discussions though these don’t get to be known in public for good reason. Many outsiders who don’t have any idea about the civil services or the Code of Conduct wonder why some civil servants start expressing their views after retirement. However, the Code of Conduct prevented me from expressing my views in public. I had enjoyed every moment of my life as a Civil Servant (I wrote in Not Just a Civil Servant that if I were to be reborn, I would like to be an IAS officer) but what happened thereafter was even better.

I superannuated as a civil servant on 30 June 2018.
